Draw Near

                                     I love that song by Kenny Chesney called EL Cerrito Place. [Brian thinks it's dumb] I think he sometimes questions my choice in music. Anyway, I don't know why I like it. I think it's romantic how he sings about looking for his love. He sings about going to the ocean and looking for her footprints in the sand. He is pursuing his love. So sweet!
                                     I have been reflecting back over this past year. I have felt overcome by the Lords love for me. I think of how He has taken care of me. I feel so unworthy. Not only how He has been with us each step of the way with Ward.... but my whole life! He truly has pursued me. I think of times I have needed him so desperately, to the point I was on my face, calling out to the Lord. I think of the times I have not been in His will. The times I have not called to Him. He has always come after me. I don't know why He would do that for me. I have such an imperfect life. James 4:8 says Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. I know I will never understand how much the Lord loves me. Just like my kids will never know how much I love them. No matter what I do or tell them.
                                       I am thankful the Lord reminded me of His love at this point in my life. Brian and I are embarking on something very new for us. I know the Lord has had this next step in place for us! The crazy thing is, it has felt natural.  We left our church of 8 years this past December. We felt the Lord leading. Brian has felt the Lord lead him to start a new church. We have prayed and asked the Lord. Is this what you want? We felt Him lead us. That's tough when you are not sure what is next. What will it all look like? So, door after door has opened. Let me say, not all at one time!! We first had to say we will take this first step. Hebrews 11:2. So, we will meet for the first time this Sunday, Jan 6th at 2:00 p.m.
                                       One more thing!!! Guess what God did?? He gave us a place to start our church. A free place! Can you believe that? As Mrs. Joan Tyson says "Isn't that just like the Lord!"

I wanted to add some pictures of Ward. He is 18 months old now and doing so good. Running, talking and eating. He is for sure #4. He likes his way. He has such a funny and cute personality. He loves when you watch him and laugh at him. He also loves his big brothers and sister.  Not a day goes by that we don't look at him and are amazed. I can't help but, believe all this we have been through has prepared us for what is to come.