Thursday, April 14, 2011

I still see Your face

I know He created me and knows everything about me. Yet, when he gives me what I need, when I need it, I am blown away. I am such a people person. A few weeks back the Lord sent me a new friend. Her name is Shannon. Prior to speaking with her or meeting her, I felt an instant connection with her as I was reading her blog. In July she will go to Uganda on a mission trip. She will be going to a hospital there that takes care of babies that have hydrocephalus [a condition in which fluid accumulates in the brain]. There is a tribe in Uganda that believes babies born with hydrocephalus are cursed. The people think the only way to break the curse is to throw these babies in the river and kill them. The hospital in Uganda can do surgery for the babies. Yet, many babies are still being killed. So, when I was reading her blog I knew I had to tell her my story. So, I emailed her. After several emails and a lot of crying and rejoicing for me, she came to pray over me at my house. This beautiful new friend of mine. A total stranger weeks back was at my side whispering prayers to our Jesus. She along with Brian and I are asking and believing the Lord is healing Ward. Some moments I feel as if I am feeling around in the dark. Just looking for some bit of light. These times have been short lived. I just continue to call out to Him and I see His face. I see His face in my new friend, I see His face in a letter in the mail. I see His face in an email from a friend to share her story about her baby. A baby who had issues at birth. I see His face at the play ground as I talk to a mom who has had a baby with a heart condition. A mom who helps me remember God is faithful. I see His face as I ask in prayer for another mother to talk to. A mom who has had a child who has hydrocephalus. I see His face as I PICK UP THE PHONE and the answer to my prayers is the mother I asked the Lord to send. So, just when I start to look He is there. He always is! The Lord has sent me comfort through believers. I see His face as we went back to the doctor to be told more fluid is on Wards brain. I am believing God for something beyond words. I am TRUSTING in Him with the out come of Ward. I am believing my worry is finished and I pressing on toward what He has. Today I called out to Him and told Him my heart. I know and I trust Him and I look to Him alone. I still see His face!

I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

A friend of mine sent me this picture when she was in Florida. I love how you can see the glow of the sun under the clouds. The ocean is rough and the sky is gray but, the light of the sun is still seen. Just the way my Jesus has been as we walk through this time.