We went to see my grandparents for Easter Sunday. They have a beautiful home in the country. They have a barn next to there house. My sister thought it would be great fun to take my picture out by the barn. I was not sure, but she told me I would be glad I did. So, late that afternoon we got our stuff and walked out to the barn. The grass hadn't been cut because it would be cut for hay when it was ready. We had to walk in what felt like a mile of waist high grass. It was so hard to even see my next step. I was tired and really sick of it. I wanted to go back to the house. I was behind my sister with her camera. She was so excited so I just kept following her. Finally, we got to the barn. I turned around to look back and really could not believe my big prego self had made it. It overwhelmed me as I looked back at that grass. It was so tall. How did I get through it. I was so glad to be to the barn. I could not help thinking of what I have been walking through with this pregnancy. I have had trouble seeing where to step. Somedays I want to go back to life as it was. Yet, I keep pressing on to what He has. Knowing that He has a plan and this is part of it. I can't get that song out of my head "Walk by Faith" by Jeremy Camp. He talks about walking by faith even when you can not see, because this broken road prepares Your will for me. The song ends with hallelujah, I will walk by faith. Somewhere between being told the news of fluid being on Wards brain and now, I have found what it means to walk by faith even when I can not see. Somehow, I have found peace in a place that looked as if peace did not exist. I know that the somehow is my Jesus. My savior without whom I would be nothing. When I looked at the pictures my sister took it hit me... as I looked at myself I realized the Lord has led me to this place of hallelujah!
HEBREWS 11:1 - "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
